Microphone off

Today is one of those days.

My mind is full of thoughts -- sad, rueful thoughts -- and the unhappiness is sitting heavy within. I'm daydreaming of things that will not be, cannot be, and I am filled with such pain. I can barely dictate this because the tears are close and would render me unintelligible.

I need to find a distraction, something to help me push this terribleness away. The problem is I would have to use my hands, which causes frustration and sadness.

The tears have started. I'm not very strong today.